THANK YOU 
to those who have supported me along the way, or those who have not (:
Thanks to OTS who recognized our efforts in the newspaper.

It's November already!
Did I ever mentioned in my blog that I've lost my iPhone and iPad in a few months time?
No no no, it's not because of snatches or whatnot, but my carelessness T__T

Yes, I miss my iPhone already but am still waiting for iPhone 5.
WHY THE HELL IT TAKE SO LONG TO MALAYSIA!
iPhone was because I dropped it into the loo while I was in the toilet, while William Cheng, being one of the bravest Unit Manager, took his initiative to pick it up for me and i washed and blew it but couldn't help to revive it. iPad was because i left it inside the class and I took quite some time to get nervous with it and by the time i went back to Uni, it was gone!

Boo. No kind people in the world who is kind enough to return to me. Sigh. WHY.

I seriously wish to catch up with different group of friends during weekends :(
Can all arrange some potluck or barbeque or steamboat sessions?

"Well, I think you know who I am referring to."

BYE.

HLA AAP 2012

AAP Dinner this years is somewhat different from last two years, but the after-dinner sessions were a lot more better than last two years! Well spent.

#1 EW Unit's awardees. Congrats to all!

#2 With Evonne.
Garfield's girl. Cute girl!

#3 The babes! Who accompanied me through quite a lot <3>

#4 More and more ladies photos are comin! :D 

Yours truly, Elwis, Vylin and Jane.

Elwis was one of the record breaker of HLA for signing a 1 million premium Cash Builder with Sammi Kum and became MDRT! 

#5 With Emily.

Saw her achievement from driving a Wira, to Honda Accord, and now, driving Audi A4. Very impress with her achievements. I know she have put a lot of effort. Wish i could be like her! 

#6 Mandy Loo.
Newly promoted Unit Manager. One of the yougest female Unit Manager in HLA.
Her changes from an ordinary girl who worked in Topshop is now leading a team of her own. Impressive!

#7 Boyee. Young and pretty lady!
Love talking to her. I love how passionate she is towards this career.
Talking to her will definitely motivate me!

#8 Nicholas Tan
You wouldn't wanna know how old is he. He is only a year older than me! One of the Unit Manager in HLA having two Unit Managers with him too and got an Alphard @ the age of 23. Impressive!

#9 With Joey and Sharon.

Both are from Perdana Centre, we are the Potential Unit Managers for this 2012/2013 in Perdana Centre :D

#10 With ah Man.
Unique name! She looks shooooo alike with her brother!

#11 With Yann Er.
Knew her from PUM class, and also MDRT for year 2013. Congratulations!

#12 With Choo Chew Siu, Johnathan Choo.

Always called me by my full name :/ Love his expression. He looks blur, but he is a smart guy!

He don't save numbers on his phone. Guess why! He can memorize all of his contacts. My god!

#13 Low Mun Hoong.
I think I got closer with him by the drinking sessions organized :/ Got to know him in HLA AAP last year. How time flies! :D

#14 With Kenrick & Vylin.
Ken was producer from Red.fm, he was Emily's secondary classmate, joined Emily this year because he saw the changes in Emily. Go and drink @ his pub @ Studio 86 @ Scott Garden!

#15 Mandy, Jane, Yours truly and Sheron.
Sheron is a funny girl. You can easily notice her existence whenever she go. I am with RPUM class with her :D

#16 With Evonne.
From Michael Fong Unit. Hehee, bumped into her @ Old Klang Road before. Knew her through PUM class too!

#17 With Jane
Jane and I are the PUM of EW's Unit, together, we must support Ernest to achieve his MDA by Nov, and support Ernest for bringing in more recruits! Recruitment is the key to success!

#18 The Babes.
This crazy people can really drink every day. EVERY DAY. Yes, every day. Once i receive calls from them, yes, i know there must be plans going on. They accompanied me a lot especially when i am down. They will just ask me to drink, and i sat there not talking and they won't bother me <3 br="br">

#19 With Candy Wong.

Not forgetting about this pretty lady with successful career in OTS, leading severals UMs together. She is only 29, and have achieved so much, so much. Owning a Panamera, house  in Desapark City. Amazing!

#20 Vylin Yong
Guess what, I didn't know her real name until now. She can drink like EVERY DAY. OMG.
But she is good <3 br="br">

#21 Our new drinking partner in Genting - Ken.
HAHA. Stupid him. He talk real well, and love to tell stories.

#22 With Vylin Yong Vylin!

#23 Eddie Chong Agency
Jane, Yours truly, Evonne, Emily, Annie, Jack. Behind were Ernest, Ken and Eddie.
Each leaders have their own leadership. We've got used to three different leadership. See Eddie grow from an agent to now, an Agency Manager in just a few years time. That's how OTS system work!

Sometimes i do ask myself, is this the career i want to be in? The answer, is still a YES.
People may be spending 10 years time to prepare his capital, to venture into the business(well, lets assume he is just an ordinary person.).

Here, i use less than that, 4 years? 5 years? and my investment is my TIME, and things i buy for myself. Along the way, till now, i would say, I am still learning. After the sales skills, i am now learning leadership skills. With a team of 4/5 people and a team of 23 people are different.

How are you going to create a system, that work for all? This is a platform for you to earn a million in less than 10 years time, provided that you are willing to work and the amount of effort you put in. It is an opportunity.

IT IS AN OPPORTUNITY.

Shinning together as one.

Wonderful time spent @ Genting with all the fighters.
Attended HLA Gala Dinner for three times. This is the first time I am receiving awards.

Recognition do mean something to me. Along the way, people have many noises towards the industry you are in. People may not understand why would you put so much time and effort in it. But by the end of the day, look at the result. It is satisfying. 

#1 Receiving Million Dollar Club Award in HLA AAP 2012.

If you can notice, along the years, I am with different people at the same occasion. People come and goes. The one who stay, the one who wins. 

#2 Jane, yours truly, Ennis, Ernest & Ryan.

#3 Eddie Chong Agency.

This isn't an easy industry to be in. Also, that is the reason why people in insurance industry could earn more. Because what we experience is tougher than ordinary work. We deal with human relationship. A business without basic. How are you going to make your team with teamwork, the togetherness?

How firm can you stand with all the discouragements and failures? 

How confidence can you be for not doubting your ability?

Do you see yourself as a cat or a lion?

It is not easy, but it is not impossible.

GAME ON.

Play the game, or you will be a loser. 

It feels a little bit scary when you are able to look through a person's personality after a few meetings.

Laziness is still in the gene yo.

It seems like there are a lot a lot of things i need to do. 

Start my thesis which is due on December 2012, assignments, in charging Saturday Training, Monday Review with other PUMs, morning meetings, attending RPUM and PUM classes, giving one on one training with agents, recruitment, sales. 

THIS IS CHALLENGING. Like, seriously.

I try to say goodbye and I choke.

Try to walk away and I stumbled.

Though I try to hide it, its clear.

My world crumbles when you are not near.

I crave for sleep. Not that I don't sleep, but I can't sleep really well.

When I sleep well, and i know, there is something wrong. 

Well, pray to God. HE will give me strength!

It's not the will to win, but the will to prepare to win that makes the difference.

DO NOT SETTLE WITH TEMPORARY DEFEATS!

相煎何太急？

Have tried, to search for the origin.

Have tried, handled it with anger and sorrows.

Have tried, forgiveness, acceptance.

You did not failed.

Sometimes, i do feel tired for holding my ego and pride so tight.

But i do not know how should i let go.

I've totally, totally, underestimated my level of tolerance.

It surprised me.

 

Bent

89 days.

Love the feeling when you are able to go all out, with nothing to hold you back.

Recognize yourself before others recognize you.

The confidence is within.

Someone like you

One day she broke down crying. At that moment, she couldn't find a reason why her tears are dropping then, she realized, she was just.. tensed up and suddenly the emotion just broke down.

Last time, she used to be a girl who cried often. And, often, people said her weak. She learned to be tough now. As tough as she could. She know she can do it and never cry. The emotional broke down have surprised her.

If the problem ain't gonna solved even after you've tell then, what for telling? Why not wait till problem is solved?
How many of you have forgotten about your dream?
Receiving compliments are.. i guess you will never get bored of it. Congratulations and congratulations. Thank you.

If it is same shits over and over again, why talk about it?

Rarely stop. Rarely.
How long you have not been spending time with yourself?
You smiled.
Have you forgiven about it or have your just ignored about it? i mean, temporarily.
Let's straight to the conclusion.

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

Sometimes i ask,

whether this is the life i would like it to be.
and shit, the answer is yes. Why not?

I want to go back to Toastmasters. It is a real good platform for me to meet different people with different background, culture. Yet, we share common interest. Sharing my life experiences through public speaking. I miss it. Certainly. Sigh, saying is always easier than doing it.

Happy 32nd Birthday Ryan!

When another focus have come in, hell, it is in mess.

It is awkward to see when all people are being so aggressive and you, often, one who choose to stand still and look at those people who are being aggressive. And deep inside the heart, you know, if you want to do it, you will definitely way exceed them. Whether it is an excuse or not, never know.

Confidence, is all that matters.

當倆個唔一樣嘅人行咪一齊會點樣？
是否能檫出咩火花咧？

嚟有冇諗过自己同其他人有點唔同呀？
曾經有點 挣扎 點解人哋唔使做工都有錢買嘢
但是自己又要自己搵錢 好似唔係幾講得個喎。

但是諗諗下 唔係喎
全部人都係自己搵錢買嘢嘅啦 好正常呀！
傻咗咩。哈哈。

如果順利嘅話，
我真係好感激。
覺得，終于可以抬起頭嚟。
其實真係好多冷言冷语
或者 佢哋無意
但是心都唔好受。

諗清楚，
要俾人哋賺得多 梗係要受多個人哋
正常呀

再諗，
成功之前 一定會失敗
有幾奇怪呀

再諗啦，
冇嘢係第一次就成功。
全都都係 numbers game。

正常呀。

諗諗下，
我其實係都係想爭返dam氣啫。
唉 但是 又如何？！

都係爲自己做工好。
同咪，接受自己係唔同嘅！
諗諗下，係事實喎！

成功一次 係nothing
繼續成功 嚟得冇呀？

點解，又會威脅都嚟呀？
傻㗎？！

有啲嘢想忘記。
有啲嘢发生咗就改變唔都
有好多嘢都變咗喇。


嚟話，有個delete button 給記憶幾好咧？
下話？

可惜可惜。

My heartache

I saw it lying in the middle of the road.
I was so afraid that cars are gonna run over it again and again.
All the cars can barely stop and avoid it.
It is in the middle of the road.

It is so difficult to see it struggling with its life.
It is heavy. It is dying.
I saw it from a close distance.
My heartache, my tears dropped.

All i can do was to help move your body to the roadside.
I hope the car won't run over you and you no need to suffer further pain.

I hope that I've helped a bit :(

Father, please not let it to suffer further pain.
Please.. :(
in Jesus's name, Amen.

Givers Gain

Attended BNI meeting on Wed, 7am. The earliest meeting I ever attend!
But it was worth it :)

It basically works as a platform for social networking for the business owners to get new business by referrals from other biz owners. Their philosophy is 'Givers Gain' which.. is a good philosophy! You give first then you'll have your biz in return.

I got to know quite a few directors from different companies. Some multilevel marketing team leaders are there too. Glad to know them and one of them is so young! He is only 26 years old and he is soooo nice! :D

What impressed me was one of the member of BNI actually reached there @ 5.45am! I was like what the fuck? I will never be the one who will reach @ 5.45am when the meeting is suppose to start @7am.

OH AND! Am so glad that I've join Toastmasters Club. BNI meeting is so similar with Toastmasters Club and definitely needed your presentation skills and to speak in public! I feel so blessed! Thanks to Ernest who brought me into Toastmasters Club! :) :)

Oh so much to tell from my experience! :D
By the way, i did have 8 assignments and presentations in hand and needed to be completed in a month time before i finished Year 2 Sem 2! Phew.

按不下停止键

Vday pressie for the boy :)

Can i hate you?

Turn off your favourite song
Just like there is nothing wrong
也许时间一长 就会遗忘
就真的当是 误会一场



It was so stupid
It shouldn't even have happened.

我俾人骑着你都知？！
所以話，都係外人睇嘢清楚。
唉。

其實真係驚唔起考驗。何必自己搹自己？
根本已經失敗。

喂！多謝提醒呀。
I appreciate it.

因爲你唔噉行開，佢知道嚟一定會返嚟。

好失敗。

Say goodbye.

I want to have a wonderful new year eve to say a good goodbye to 2o1o.

Well, human tend to magnified the unhappy things happened rather than the happy one. Me too remember vividly. The devil is taking control. The mind is thinking nonsense but hey, there is a reason that trigger it to happen. She said, she regretted because she shouldn't have done that in the very beginning. But i say, no, is the middle part that went wrong. I was once, holding on so tight not forgiving what that have happened and tried my best to prevent it, avoid it, in any way i could. However, failed. It only makes me suffer. To trust again, needs a lot of courage. Not afraid that I'd get hurt, but afraid that I'd get hurt, for the same fucking reason, again.

It can never be perfect again..

Oh well, perhaps life is full of secrets and lies.
I shouldn't have act surprised.
Get over it Cassandra.

The ugly truth.

Never mind about the things written above. Let's just welcome year 2o11 to us! :D
I know it is gonna be another wonderful year in my life. My 21st years old is coming! HA. wtf right..

Happy New Year 2o11!

:D

人心险恶

I had a rejection last week from a prospect. My tears almost drop once i heard it over the phone. I mean, I've followed up him long enough. Almost a month and more. The reason was actually he got no confidence in HLA. You know what, i really would love to make it happen. Not solely because of the commission I'll be receiving but the recognition from my effort and myself. But oh well, it's alright. There are plenty of potential customers out there. It was good. Seriously. Am getting more understandable of this entire process.

Also, with so many cold calls I've made, some people are just so.. awful. Human. Even directors of some companies. But most i may say, Malays in the top management level are quite nice seriously.


New year is just around the corner! Nothing productive that I've done this year that i could think of. Hopefully the new year eve would be great like last few years! :D Have been spending it with the same person. Phew.

"If you found out that your boyfriend is with your friend, what would you do?"

I'll probably give up both.
Neither one should betray me.

OH NO, don't think so much. Viona asked me this last time :)

Are we going any trips next year?
OH PLEASE, AM DYING FOR IT ALREADY.

I gotta feeling that next year would be another great year!
Another fucking awesome year!


:D :D :D

Overtaken by temporary defeat.

And i will delete it because i choose not to remember.
I shall back to how am like last time. I shall just start over. Laughing. Crazying.

Do you know i have a wish?
I wanted to be a clown. For one day.

He asked, so on the 28th, we'll be going to Sunway?
Yes. I've told some of my friends that i wanted to go bungy jump on my birthday. I had them to come with me. Who is in?

"Thrill seekers will be free falling 22m above the water, a height equivalent to a nine-storey building."

“It is something beyond their comfort zone when they step out onto the edge of the platform,"

"Those interested would have to be at least 10 years of age and have to be of a minimum weight of 35kg or maximum of up to 285kg."

要爱就爱的轰轰烈烈。要断就断得干干脆脆。

And I'll never talk again, Oh boy you left me speechless you left me speechless. So speechless.
And I'll never love again, Oh boy you left me speechless, you left me speechless. So speechless.

The song can't stop repeating in my mind.

immasuchaloserinlove.nothewhochangedmebutimyself.
Iwhomadethistothisextend. White Flag!

Bubble Dreams.

I want to Cry hard. Drink hard. Laugh hard.

And i want to repaint my nails but i don't have the patience. Fuck it.

"Success comes to those who become success conscious.
Failure comes to those who indifferently allow themselves to become failure conscious."

A man, who make je stop.U.

Just a dream

Was at Taylors Lakeside Campus this morning for Taylors University Toastmasters Club Charter Ceremony. I can see that it will be a very powerful club! Welcome, welcome to the world of Toastmasters! Congratulations!

Many do not know, actually there is a sketch performance in collaboration of Taylors and HELP UC TMC for the 18th SAC at Legend Hotel for the Gala Night. However, the performance was canceled just 2days before the event. I felt sad and disappointed for them. Seriously. They, who have sacrificed their time and effort for the practice for almost two months. But, with only one word, one command from the person in charge, everything was dropped. Nothing, no one, is appreciated.

We still look into things in a positive way. Although performance have canceled, however, for that two months, i believe the bond between Taylors and HELP has grew and it will continue to grow! There will be a joint meeting for Taylors and HELP at Taylors Lakeside Campus! Feel free to drop by! It will be on Saturday morning :D For more, do log on to www.helptmc.blogspot.com!

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Two assignments due on the same day. Die.
All 4subjects are due about the same time. I can't even tell which assignment is due on which date. Die. Phew.


Do we have to really focus things one at a time to do the best out of it? :(
Next month, we'll count down for year 2011. Time flies!

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No 3rd time please. Or else, I'll fucking screw you!

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I've created a new equation! :D

Honesty = Trust + Securities!
Brilliant me :) hiak hiak!

Btw, i thought Takers was good :)

爱多少早知道

早知道我会爱得受不了
就该随身带著一把剪刀
把所有我不爱的画面都去掉
是否我会更好
早知道认识你像玩高空弹跳
拉扯你我爱的距离忽大忽小
也许认识我的时候你就知道
你对我的爱有多少

原来我撑着撑得累了。

Stepping down

Six months.

Today, is the last meeting for this term. Today, is the last meeting for me to deliver my presidential speech and closing address. It was simply amazing. The guests and members have brighten up my day. The meeting was filled with laughter and I thank Amanda Low to join our meeting!

[Don't let the noise drown you]
The last speech i delivered in the Competent Communicator Manual.
This is what happened to me last few months ago and it brought impact to me. I was once doubt my decision because of other people's opinion. Then, i learned. Not to listen to them. Not to let the noise of other people's opinion drown out my inner voice. I shall follow my heart instinct and intuition. I hope my personal stories are able to inspire the audience in the room! It is not easy!

The people around you, always tell you this cannot succeed, that cannot succeed. They leave their words behind you so you thought of it often and it often tend to hold you back. If, at that particular moment of time, I've chose to quit, I thought, i wouldn't have chance to feel the joy of being achieved a particular target and earn a trip to Singapore with free accommodation and free 1day pass to Universal Studio!

I feel glad and easy now :)
Still moving on.

[The only reward for love is the experience of loving]
John LeCarre